Ramblings

Its not really a merito-cracy. As long as you are able to speak about your skills and techs like evangelists speak about "religion", meaning you speak with conviction even though you are not convinced inside that you know the topic, its fine. Or maybe delude yourself into believing that you know something when you don't. So people will ask if you can solve a particular problem or if you are an expert level on some skill, what are you supposed to say...

I would like to say, I have a sharp mind, I am hard working, I have worked on this and this before, and maybe I can solve it or I am working on being an expert (you can never be perfect/absolute expert 10/10 in any skill!!!). Whats up with this hypocrisy. In any case its all about just making more money at any cost... I am probably in the wrong line here. Is it too late to change?

If I start a firm, who will I partner with, how will I get clients, will I be able to weather storms that will surely come without being blown over?

If I go to university, that place unless I luck out doesn't look too promising either. Same kind of beasts rule there. Even if I luck out how will I support family with very limited income?